Definition

https://www.merriam-webster.com/dictionary/wayward

  1. following one’s own capricious, wanton, or depraved inclinations : “a wayward child” : UNGOVERNABLE
  2. following no clear principle or law : “a wayward system” : UNPREDICTABLE
  3. opposite to what is desired or expected : “wayward fate” : UNTOWARD

It’s almost as if the way had its own will, which you cannot vent, and as such, you must go wayward. Yorguin

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